casting down footprints in this world, and not looking back to regret the path made. A simple girl, yet a masterpiece carved by the hands of her master above.
loves da bible, running my fingers on a keyboard, listening to music, talking, eating, gazing at nature's beauty. Feels smitten easily just by lying under coverage of stars, staring at them.
journey written down here may have it ups and downs, but let it be a blessing to u =) hop on long enough, and u will see the happy ever after ending with my master above. =)
This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it...
Monday, March 31, 2008
*breathes*
i think i will choose not to elaborate on my 'bad' day (for the lack of better word, but i honestly dont believe in 'bad' days), except to say this is the day that the Lord has made, i will rejoice and be glad in it.
i thank God no major damage was done. =)
if u really wanna know wat happened... A car banged my car today (not i bang ar..), causing my wira to be half butt-less now. and I handed in a 2000 words essay (according to the format) where everyone told me tht the lecturer extended it to 2500 words.
~"My prayer does the things my hand cannot do"~
oh , wanna hear a joke? just a lil continuation from the car story, i called my dad to talk to the fella, this was a glimpse of the conversation.....
young man : hmm..so wats the normal rate of compensation? dad : RM 200 young man: oh..so ur daughter is going to pay me RM 200 right??
To the Only God Who is able to keep us Able to keep us from falling To the only God Be all glory and honour majesty and power For all ages now, and forevermore ~me~ at 1:06 AM Comments-[ comments.]
The star, the camel, the direction, to look for the baby king.
But there's one BIG problem.
THEY ARE IN THE WRONG CENTURY!
What are they gonna do?
Will they find the baby eventually?
Or are they too late?
Adventure with them LIVE this sunday (23 march) in BBK @ 1030 am, and get prepared for a true story, that changed the history of this world. Its relevant to both u and me, no matter what century that you are living in. =)
to one extent,i think i have failed being a good friend. i treat words with care, and i guess this time, i might have crossed the line, i dont know. my apologies, if i seem ignorant.
to err is human, to be divine is God. I make mistakes too, and i do forget details at times. i m trying very hard to keep up with everyone's life, but i m human as well.
~me~ at 11:28 PM Comments-[ comments.]
Monday, March 17, 2008
Today's lovely.. Nothing major happened, but its just bits of blissfulness tht made me smile.
Well, my day started by reading a sms reminding me about isaiah 40:28-31. So, i strectched out my hand to reach for my bible and started reading it.
"...but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
what an encouragement to start the week/day! Thank u. =)
As the day went by, the song 'your love goes on forever' was repeated over and over in my mind. Not sure whether did anyone notice, but i was humming to the tune of it during waiting time in lab. ahhaha...
I had a good chat with Ayesha today as well, before GEN lecture. It was fun recalling our experience in SCI 2010, and was also telling her bout my experience in australia , as she will be heading there next sem for her exchange. My day didnt seem lonely anymore. lol...
Fetched Xiu Qi to BP station today, and the road condition was pretty smooth. *yeeah* I wouldnt mind if its congested anyway, cuz i have more time to bond with her then. ehhehe..
Came home, and enjoyed the company of my family. We ordered pizza today cuz we were lazy to go out. But simplicity has its joy accompanied, no? *grin*
Then, happen to read a friend's blog, and found something hilarious! It was about someone's *ehm* weird parking position. its literally the evident of the cliche saying tht goes - "monkey see, monkey do." tht reallly made me burst into laughter. ...and am still laughing now. haha!
The bestest part/hightlight of the day?? ELLIE'S GETTING BAPTISED AND HER PARENTS ARE GOING!!!!! yeah..i was really thrilled by the news, ellie. I wish i could go.
oh oh..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE JASON KHONG! ....u r old =p SO, quit saying u r just 17.
ANd ...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL CHUA! ...dont worry, u r not so old, *yet*. hehehe!
Gonna just give a brief praise report on the camp in we had for the upper secondary school kids on fri-sat.
Well...wat can i say?
I m really amazed at wat i discovered in them during the camp! These young ppl, form 4 and 5, arent any ordinary young ppl. they are extraordinary! I have so much to testify, yet i dont know where to start.
The highlight of the camp was the cooking competition. They were given the ingredients, and the pictures of the final product, but NOT the recipe. nyek nyek nyek.. It was a hilarious sight when they were trying to 'investigate' what's in the picture, and what ingredients should they take. they were separated into two groups: the 'chicken' group, and 'pasta' group.
I like wat i see in them. The way they compromise with each other, inter and intra group. To some, or most of them, this is their first time cooking,thus the speed of cutting, marinating, etc...is slower. hahaha! I had a good time watching them cutting the tomatoes/french beans/onions with such patience, and such consistent in terms of the size of the cubes. Also, i admire the patience in their group members as they slowly waited for the tomatoes and beans to be cut. hahahahah!
To cut the long story short, the final products from each group were fantabulous! all of their dishes do look like the pictures... it tasted good too, considering its their first time. *applause* So, tht was our dinner. hahaha..
After tht, we had evaluation on the whole competition. I was truly humbled, by what they shared.
Firstly, each of the two groups willingly followed one person's instructions, without appointing before hand who should be the leader. There was a good balance of leaders, and followers. It was so automatic, and everyone had their job delegated so well!
Secondly, no complaints, or whines, or any of that sort. As cooking may seem like a 'gal' thing, the guys did not say a SINGLE negative comment about it. There were no harsh words said to members who may be a lil slow. There were no dispute among members.
Thirdly, they were sensitive to one another's needs. Though it was a competition, but there wasnt any selfish attitude tht arose. All of them were focused on their 'mission' , which was to prepare dinner. It didnt matter who wins. We only had one kitchen basin, and limited number of stove. Yet, they knew how to compromise. There was an incident where a member had a cut on her finger, and every member in her group stopped to help her. There was another incident where the opposite group needed something, and the other group lended their hand. I m not sure if adults would do the same if placed in such a position. There wasnt any thought of sabotaging.
Fourthly, they were united, and postive. During the post mortem of the event, everyone was complimenting each other! i think this was the most touching moment! Everyone was involved, even the quieter ones. Truly stunned me when they started encouraging one another. I have never seen such ...such... love.
The worship session was fantastic too! All of us had a good time worshipping the Lord, and the presence of God was truly felt. The worship leader and musician? they are only form 4(s)!
We ended early tht night. and normally, in any camp, they would stay up late to play cards, or some sort. u know what this fantastic bunch did? They sat down , and had meeting to finalise the easter sunday school programme!! I had the privilege to just sit in and listen to them, and wow...i really salute them in their planning and thinking. I was speechless, and just wore a smile on my face, thanking God for their hearts and passion.
there are plenty more to say about them. I can see potential leaders from the group. Time to change a cliche saying tht we are all very familar with - "The young generation will be the leaders of tomorrow". I think the 'tomorrow' has come, cuz they are the leaders of today. and i m thrilled and honoured to be able to witness their growth. I have been in BBK for all my life, and i have known almost 80% of them in church since they were babies. I can only say, truly by God's grace, they have come thus far, and the good news, is, God is not done with them yet!
As a former youth leader, i m proud of them. I think not only they were blessed,i was blessed tremendously by them. I learnt so much, and my heart was humbled. I thank God, for blessin them to me.
If u were to ask me why i chose to go for this camp, my reply would be a lil uncertain. Well, i would tell u tht i wanna bond with them, and to learn from the teachers of these kids in leading this camp. But somehow, i know there's a greater reason than tht. I have to admit the decision of going for this camp in was a rushed one, and i didnt give much thought about it. But i was prompted to go for it, and pastor confirmed it.
.....and i did not regret a single bit!
=)
i'll upload the rest of the pics on facebook when i have the time.
Yes laidees and gentlemen, JOHN LOKE, also now known as BUDAK BOTAK is back for good! YAY! *squeeze*
Something tht i have looked fwd for so long, and it really adds joy to my life to have him around. To have someone to laugh with,to have someone to exchange stories with, to have someone to share responsibilities in the house. (nyek nyek nyek). hahaha..jk. Also, to be able to hear the name "JOHN~~~" being called by mom and dad in the house, and not just "JANE~~~". hahaha...
i think i laughed the most during dinner, ever since i came back from aus. I felt such a relieve, to laugh it all out. At least tht compensate the crying part.
Its also encouraging to hear stories from him, how he managed to minister to a fella, how a good testimony he has been in the camp and also to the church he attends to, etc... As i was listening to him, my respect for him grew even more. He's only 18 this year, yet the number of lives that he has touched is tremendous! I feel quite ashamed at times tht as a older sister, my maturity level, and influence sometimes cant match his. I really proud tht i have john loke as my brother.
Since he has been such a good boy, maybe i shud buy him a wig.. then he will look like this:
Pink nice , no? =)
Glad to have u back, bro. With ur round pokey head, i can wipe the dust off my hands by scrubing my hands on ur head. Dust = fertiliser for ur hair growth? (HAH! tht's for the comment u wrote to me when i was in aus! take tht! bluek.)
~me~ at 11:08 PM Comments-[ comments.]
Monday, March 10, 2008
=/ I still find myself looking out the window , dreaming. Maybe, i will find myself looking to that familarity. Maybe, i will find myself in my comfort area. Maybe, i will find myself staring bright sparkles. Maybe, i will find myself being amazed at how far i have come. Maybe, i will find myself being there, one day.
I have traveled many moonless nights, Cold and weary with a babe inside, And i wonder what i've done. Holy father you have come, And chosen me now to carry your son.
I am waiting in a silent prayer. I am frightened by the load i bear. In a world as cold as stone, Must i walk this path alone? Be with me now. Be with me now.
Breath of heaven, Hold me together, Be forever near me, Breath of heaven. Breath of heaven, Lighten my darkness, Pour over me your holiness, For you are holy. Breath of heaven.
Do you wonder as you watch my face, If a wiser one should have had my place, But i offer all i am For the mercy of your plan. Help me be strong. Help me be. Help me.
Breath of heaven, Hold me together, Be forever near me, Breath of heaven. Breath of heaven, Lighten my darkness, Pour over me your holiness, For you are holy.
~we have what it takes to shine in this world, eventhough we may be alone, cuz our light is from Him ~
~me~ at 12:50 AM Comments-[ comments.]
We are ... Anxious Blind Confused Doubtful Emotionally overwhelmed.
He is... The Way The Truth The Life
What is required of us... Decide. Do not let our hearts be troubled. Trust in God. Trust in Jesus.
I cant run away from God . He always has this ability to speak to me at the right timing. *darn* hahaha.. In all the"ABCDE" of who we are, i think i have it all. As pastor was saying, Jesus is the way out, provides us the truth tht will set us free, and He gives us abundant life. So, turn our eyes on Jesus, we will find the answer to our decision.
On a totally different note... HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY , HWEE JIAN!
Our surprise tak jadi. We went to her lecture classroom, takde orang dah. her class ended 15 mins early. cis. then we found out she's in com lab. Went to cari her, as jason was preparing to take out the cake, hwee jian opened the door. hahahaha..the expression on jason's face was quite the comical, and he shouted "EH....WHY U COME OUT? Balik inside...or jump down from the building!!"
[yeah....jason and tim took turns to be photographer]
then, we pigi Kim Gary in sunway Piramid to makan lunch .
We seemed so free hor? I memang free today....thanks to class cancellation(s). my timetable was supposed to be... 10-11, 2-4, 5-6. Reached uni at 10, tim messaged and said class cancelled. *breathes*..okaye...nevermind...will wait for the 2pm class. Went to check MUSO (now known as ''blackboard''), found out tht 2-4 class was cancelled AS WELL. 0-0 I came so early for the 5-6 class!!
Nevertheless, i had fun with the group today. Its been such a long time since we went out hor? Was out with Jian, Melissa, Tim , Jason, Xiu Qi, and Tong Yao. (sook wai, rachel , quek....u guys are missing here..) It was amusing, watching mel and jason arguing... It was hilarious, watching tim and mel bullying xiu qi.. It was funny, watching jian's blurness.. It was mind boggling, trying to answer tong yao's and tim's "quiz".. It was dumb, listening to jason's nonsensical statements. (aaahha..jk jk..)
I thank God for them. Without them, i think my life in uni would be pretty mundane. They helped me quite a bit to integrate my life back here in monash msia. Thank u. =)
BTW.... STEP UP 2 was superb! i enjoyed every single bit of it, and i dun mind watching it again. *hint* no doubt the story line might be cliche, but who cares, its the dance tht matters anyway. I was blown away, totally. I wished i had taken up hip hop when i was younger. now as i learn it, its kinda hard when it comes to certain techniques, as i m not *that* flexible not matter how much i practice. the word is not OLD. *bleh* Just not flexible.
Vantage point was good too! Tho, it was kinda....well...repetitive during the first half of the movie, but as we watched on, the climax finally was shown as the show progressed. U need a lil ....patience. but, I have to give them credit for the creativity tho, as i have not really seen any movie tht was put up in such a way before.
After hearing Monash CF performing 'only hope' for their club 'promotion' in uni today, i went home, and started watching clips of tht show.
I *hearts* this show. By far, i think this is the most romantic show i have ever watched. Maybe because it involves stars...tht's why. ahhaha!! Pride and Prejudice comes second now, for me. LOL!
"Whom have I in heaven but You There's none i desire besides You You have made me glad I will say of the Lord
You are my shield, my strength My portion , Deliverer My shelter , strong tower My very present help in times of need"
Lord, You are my very PRESENT help in times of need.
Not only did You help me in the past, you will help me in the present.
I am hidden in You, my ONLY shelter, my ONLY tower, my ONLY hope.
my Only God.
In the beginning, it was You. At the end, it will be You as well.
I m only a broken vessel.
I have nothing to offer, and i can do nothing without You.
Show me what's next, show me where, show me how....clearly.
And lead me there. I dont want to be at a place where i m not walking in Your fulfilment of my life, and be out of ur shield.
Its not the sacrifice that You've asked for, its obedience.
"I will not be moved, and i will say of the Lord, You are my shield"
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Prayer meeting at Harvest Gen church was awesome.
Ps Ryan said a sentence that challenged us - "We start with God, we end with God"
We receive from God, and at the end, we give it all back to Him.
He givesus strength, we give Him our praise and worship.
It's been a long time, worshipping God together with Ps Ryan, and his leaders.
I had a good time worshipping the Lord with them, and i m reminded of the good ol days of when i was serving with them during the first few years of my campus life.
They were the ones that challenged , and encouraged me to be fervent in my walk with God.
I have learnt so so so so much from them, and they played and still play a big part in my life in helping me to become who God wants me to be.
The fact tht i m where i m today, its because of their patience in guiding me, and teaching me.
My campus life was never mundane, because of these.....
