casting down footprints in this world, and not looking back to regret the path made. A simple girl, yet a masterpiece carved by the hands of her master above.
loves da bible, running my fingers on a keyboard, listening to music, talking, eating, gazing at nature's beauty. Feels smitten easily just by lying under coverage of stars, staring at them.
journey written down here may have it ups and downs, but let it be a blessing to u =) hop on long enough, and u will see the happy ever after ending with my master above. =)
whee!! how i wish its christmas every day! I love christmas. Its not so much the gifts, the hoo-ha in the shopping complexes, or the formality of christmas service.. Its having the assurance thtGod loves me, tht He send Jesus for me. how cool is tht? And not only tht, He showered His love by surrounding me with a lovely 'family of friends'. For tht, i m blissful. truly blissful.
Was listening to another song from the christmas CD i bought recently, and was tryin to find a cool youtube video to upload here to share it with all of u. This is the best i could find. I played it more than 10 times i think, cuz i was totally smitten by it. On top of tht, the lyrics is really really meaningful.
Da title is : A Prayer For Every Year - Plus One
I hope it touches u, as much as it touched me.
The lyrics taken from "http://www.sing365.com/music/lyric.nsf/A-Prayer-For-Every-Year-lyrics-Plus-One/540CAFD4A3990E4A48256C87000F3929"
Do you remember me? Long ago on bended knee I prayed to you With childhood fantasy Well I’m all grown up now Can you still help somehow I’m not a child But my heart still can dream
Please hear my prayer tonight And help me do what’s right Not for myself But for a world in need
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts And every man would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end This is my prayer for every year
May kindness rule our lives Not just the strong survive Sweet tears for all A Thousand years gone by
This is the world I pray We will share someday Let me begin by reaching out my hand (my hand)
No more lives torn apart That wars would never start And time would heal all hearts Every man would have a friend And right would always win And love would never end This is my prayer for every year
What is this illusion called The innocence of youth Maybe only in their Blind belief will we ever find the truth
No more lives torn apart (torn apart) That wars would never start (never start) And time would heal all hearts (hearts) And every man would have a friend (have a friend) And right would always win (always win) And love would never end This is my prayer for every year This is the prayer I hope you hear This is my prayer for every year ~me~ at 8:48 PM Comments-[ comments.]
Monday, December 24, 2007
Just wanna share with all of u my all time favourite christmas song, and just attached a youtube video on it.
Rmbr the true meaning of christmas, and i hope all of u will have a great one!
Leavin u all with..... "We are the reason" - Avalon.
Wahh!!! i cant believe i said tht...So foolish of me, and how blind i was!
Its a small thing la, but grrr...i still cant believe i ..urgh!
The question was : " wat was ur best christmas gift?" I dono why, dumb-dumbly i said the candles that was given by someone.
I came back, i told yeong ru i felt pretty erm foolish saying tht. She agreed. And then, she made me realise i had a better gift this year, which it totally didnt cross my mind--my camera.
ARGH! how could i have forgotten about it! Probably i have stored tht in my mind as my bday gift, but...still!! Argh!
Now i feel so bad.
Candles it seems. pfft! Jane!?!??!?!? No sense ka? the sentimental value is no longer there, and i still mention it.
Yeah, and it has to start with one, and there are about 100 more to go. I had 2 looks at it today. Well, and i have decided, though still half-heartedly, to start the first physically step of moving on. hahah..yeah, shud have done it looooong time ago right?
i guess i came to a point where if i dont start clicking 'delete' , it will be even harder for me to 'delete' it out of my memories. even the inbox is 95% full now. How can i store in new memories if i m not willing to let go of the old ones that are not meant to be there?
yea...its hard to let go of something tht has so much of sentimental values in it. Haih..wat to do ? coming from a gal who doesnt throw away cinema tickets or receipts, u think its easy to delete msges, or throw away notes that are personal to me?
I feel like a fool for keeping it at times. i feel like a fool for even waiting. i feel even more like a fool to be angry about a hurt tht u may not even know.
so.i will start today. one at a time. *click*
I know God has been prompting me about this for quite some time. I know He wants to impart more to me. But, with those baggages in me, i cant go far. So, i will continue to sow my mind with His promises,rather than sowing grudges or unwanted past memories. And according to God, i will reap. Reap the manifestation of His promises as i sow.
I know most likely, *you* dont read my blog. Or probably i m out of ur mind already. I cant believe till now, i havent heard from u, not even on 7 dec. Well, it doesnt matter anymore if i dont matter to u. Cuz God loves me,and tht's sufficient.
Really, tht's sufficient.
"In all things, we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For i am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 7:37-39
Also, i have learnt in alpha today tht as our faith looks towards facts, feelings follow, and it shouldnt be faith following feelings.
I wanna thank EVERYONE for making my burfday so shpecial. Getting one surprise was enough to 'wow' me.. but..i got 3 instead!
one on nov 15, one on dec 6, and another one on dec7.
For nov 15, the mastermind was CALVIN WOON (aka baboon)! Well, no one has ever plan a bday surprise or sabo for me a month earlier. Though i got all dirty, sticky , and yucky, it will be something tht i will look back and grin when i feel depressed or sad. Thank you, calvin.
For dec 6 and dec 7, i heard it was suppose to be a combined one, but due to some logistics difficulties, it was splitted into two! so in the end, i take tht as two surprises.. the mastermind(s) are SOOK WAI and JASON ! Sook wai..i was really REALLY speechless when i saw u&monash peeps in ying thai with my family. And also all the effort u made, the time u took to prepare it, for tht i m touch-ed. Till now, i really cant believe u took so much effort to plan it, for me. I m so glad tht i could come over to australia to study with u! To quek, rach, joanne, kenny, chan yew...thanks for being there to celebrate with me as well =) your presence meant a lot!
Jason...thank you for hosting my bday dinner on dec 6. The number of ppl u have to contact, the changes tht u have to make,the planning u had to be involved in with sook wai, and other stuff tht i might not know. i was speechless as well when u announce tht CG is over, and the rest of the time was spent celebrating my bday. Well..i m glad they had a surprise for u too, cuz u deserve it as well!
To my CG, i wanna thank u for the lovely notes! i read each and everyone of them, and it is something tht i will read again, and again! Thank u for the words of encouragement, and also the opportunites that was given to me to be a part of this family! You guys truly are amazing bunch and have played a big part in this significant chapter of my life.
To the rest of the Clayton CG who came, i wanna convey my sincere gratitude to all of u. The sharing session meant so much to me, and i will cherish every word said. Thank u for the encouragement, and believe it or not, you all have impacted my life here as well. Though i have known all of u for only 6 months, yet, i will never ever forget this chapter of my life because of the huge impact tht u guys have made in me.
To my monash friends in clayton and back home, thank you for remembering my bday, and also the gift tht was sent thru sook wai. hehee...
To Campus City fellow friends, thank u so much for the big big card! i miss all of u too! Though u guys weren't here physically with me, yet your presence was felt when i read the card. Keep going all out for God back home! Especiallly to ellie, thank u for compiling the msges in the card.. I miss u lil girl! hehehehhe...yes..little girl. muahahaha.. (*wink*)
To Sean Im and Yeong Ru, a million thanks for coming all the way to see me and to celebrate with me!! i had fun with u guys, and still having fun with u yeong ru! okaye..this is weird cuz u are just beside me playin some kiddy computer game.. but yes, i do appreciate it! to yeong ru, when u first told me u will be coming over to celebrate with me, i tot u were just kidding. But u werent. hehehe.. my best friend, and forever will be. =) i hope u are enjoying ur stay here, as much as i m enjoying ur company.
To the rest of the sevonders (Chai kun, elane, suet yee, li shawn, and wen teng), thank u for the call made from msia! so happee tht i m remembered! ehhe! this is the group where i m comfortbale to speak my mind out, and also an avenue where i can be myself! thank u for making the effort to keep in touch eventhough we have gone our separate waysl.
To pastor and Aunty guat, uncle &aunty nick (hehe),and BBK church members, thank u for the emails! It shows tht i m remembered though i m not back home physically. thank u for every prayer tht was uttered for me, because i wont be who i am today if it wasnt for those prayers. =)
To my cousins, and relatives..ehhehe..thank u for the presents that was sent over through my parents, and also the sms-es, and msges thru msn. heheheh..i await for the time where we could have our mamak sessions again. =)
Lastly, to my dad, mom, and my bro john, THANK U FOR FLYING ALL THE WAY TO SEE ME!!! mann..i miss u guys a lot! I had so much fun with u in melbourne, and i wished your stay here was longer. It was definitely too short cuz we didnt had enough time to finish catching up! yet, i m grateful for the time we have together. THank u so much for the lovely gift(s)! i really didnt expect any gifts cuz your presence in melb meant so much to me already! i m really blessed to be the daughter of the family,and also the one-and-only sister of john loke! hahaha! Love u guys! thank you for supporting me financially, and also morally. All of u were always there when i needed to talk, or when i needed some advice. Though i may not be the smartest, or the brightest, but thank u for accepting the jane loke tht i m.
Ultimately, i wanna praise God for all of u. Indeed, He has shown His love thru all of u. Before tht, i was feeling rather down, but He lifted me up by proving it to me that i m truly loved. He answered my prayer, and not only answered, He gave me much more than i deserved! All these wouldnt have happened if its not for his divine appointment.
I still could rmbr what happened last year during my bday, and i tot tht was sufficient. God never cease to bless me after tht, and He never cease to remind me about His love. Just yday,He reminded me about His undying love when He died on the cross, thru a song tht was sung during worship. Though i may fail a thousand million times, yet His mercy remains.
What a lovely and mighty God i serve!
He also granted a lot of my wishes of what i wanted for my 21st bday, mainly moments and gifts of sentimental values. =)
I know i owe all of u pictures, but bear with me as i upload it with the speed of a tortoise. So, for starters, i shall post a picture of my gifts!
Though the sun may not shine, He shines. Though my world maybe silent, He speaks. Though i may not be rich, He provides. Though i may not be the best looking girl around, He is beautiful. Though i have nothing much to shout about, He has everything to shout about. Though situation shakes, He is my rock. Though sadness clouds over me, He is the joy. Though words spoken hurts, His Words brings life. Though i may not be the smartest person around, He grants wisdom.
Yeah,..He grants wisdom, and i wanna thank God for bringing me thru the exam period, and granting me results that i know i dont deserve. Even though it may not be as 'wow' as many ppl, but i know where i stand, and i know its my God's grace that i obtained such result. =)
Well, at least i m one step close to pursuing honours! =)
ok..next up..something totally out of this topic.. I attended a wedding ceremony on saturday! whee~~~ First time attending one in Melbourne. It was so so so *~~~awww~~~* Its the wedding of Pastor Ian's and Aunty Daisy's eldest daughter. and guess what, Pastor announced the engagement of theri SECOND daughter today!!! how cool is tht??
Anyway, back to the wedding..hehehe.. It was held in a grammar school. At first, i was like 'huh? a wedding in a school??" And my mind drifted to imagine a wedding held in SMK Taman SEA school hall. When i arrived, its nothing like SMK Taman SEA. Da place is B-E-A-U-tiful! Too bad i couldnt capture any pictures cuz my camera is still in coma.
The interior of the chapel hall was magnificient! The sound of the bell, the melodius ring of the pipe organ, the soft chittering of ppl's whispers, the excited faces of the bride's and groom's family members, the splendid drawings carved on the wall of the chapel, etc... It definitely smelled joy! And...and....it had an all-boys choir!!!!!! tht's like my ideal dream in a wedding, to have a choir. hahhaha.. better still, the vienna boys' choir. =p *echoes ohh...*
so after all the admiration of the backdrops, here comes the moment.. as the song from sound of music was being played, as everyone stood up with their heads poppped out to take a peek as the bride, as though time stopped for her to take her first step in.. Bridesmaid after bridesmaid.. and ta-da! There she comes , with all her splendour of her gown, looking resplendent, walking down the aisle, wearing the big satisfaction smile..
and everyone just went '~~Aww~~'
okaye..i may not have the best description of the wedding here, but really ,no words can really describe how how...gorgeous it was.
i love weddings. i love the part when the lovers are brought together. I love the part where they exchange vows. i love the 'i do(s)' and not to forget , the 'u-may-now-kiss-the-bride' part!
haha..yes, kisses are meant to be kept for tht part! so ppl, dont lose ur first kiss b4 ur wedding! =)
hehehhe...to set the record straight, i m not desperate here. ahahhaha i m just one who appreciate weddings, and how it is so sacred. how it symbolises me being the bride , and God being the groom. Reminded of our commitment to him when we say 'i do' to Him, with till death do us apart. okaye, minus the death part cuz we have eternal life with Him. U get my drift. ehhee..
Tan Sean Im! (i think this is the only pic i have with u alone).
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY!!!!!
I know i might have ruin ur first few minutes of it (or the whole day), but i do sincerely hope u had a good day today. =)
~me~ at 9:14 PM Comments-[ comments.]
