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This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it...
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Dedicated to Jie Ying...
Jie Ying o Jie Ying...
I blame it on IMU. bluek.
Argh..... i wont be seeing u till GOd knows when.
IMU and MOnash is sooo far.
I wont be able to drink the beverage u prepare in CC .
I wont be able to share jokes with u tht only both of us could understand (due to our unique lameness)
I wont be able to pat ur head.
I wont be able to tease u on ur weird taste on guys, esp *ahem* hujan.
I wont be seeing u conducting the choir.
I wont be seeing ur cheerful smiley face tht is so contagious , tht it causes ppl around u, esp me to smile.
You wont be there to hit me like u always do.
You wont be there to give me a hug when i need one.
You wont be able to wink at me and give tht cheeky trade mark jie ying smile to me.
We wont be able to share as much. MSN is different.
We wont be able to go to cabana together as often.
WE wont be able to check out each other's weird hairstyle.
WE wont be able to argue over petty matters like 'i prefer u in pants', and "u prefer urself in skirt".
We wont be praying together in a group.
We wont be serving alongside with each other.
Argh.....
*sob*...i m so gonna miss u. =p
Ah well..i know GOd has His plans for u, and I know this is part of His plan as well. I m so glad finally u get to do something u enjoy, and to make ur parents proud by entering IMU. GOd has great plans for u, and live in it every single day! Continue to believe for ur dad's salvation, and rest assured, u will be in my prayers. Never give up, but have the faith to persevere. Carry tht spirit in u to Uni and ur class, and be the shining light! once again, i m so gonna miss u,Jie Ying! It has been a good 3 + years serving alongside and knowing u, and i thank God he brought u to me as a good friend.
=) take care.
~me~ at 9:51 PM
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Saturday, February 24, 2007
*grins* congratulation lisbeth! i m so so so happpeee for u =) *hugs*
I really ....so reallly...really really wanna go over to denmark to be celebrate this joyous occassion with you this june! But i know i cant. *pouts*
~me~ at 1:10 AM
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Sunday, February 11, 2007
Another song by Jaci Velasquez :
I've been looking 'til my eyes are tired of looking
Listening 'til my ears are numb from listening
Praying 'til my knees are sore from kneeling
On the bedroom floor
I know that You know that my heart is aching
I'm running out of tears and my will is breaking
I don't think that I can carry
The burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are slowly slipping through my folded hands
Chorus
So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go
I'm gonna lay it down
I've been walking through this world like I'm barely living
Buried in the doubt of this hole I've been digging
But You're pulling me out and I'm finally breathing
In the open air
This room may be dark but I'm finally seeing
There's a new ray of hope and now I'm believing
That the past is the past and the future's beginning to look brighter now
'Cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands
Chorus
So I'm gonna lay it down
I'm gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don't come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I'm gonna let it be, I'm gonna let it go
I'm gonna lay it down
~me~ at 12:00 AM
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Thursday, February 08, 2007
ENJOYING THE BAG OF STUFF SI QIN GAVE...
listening to one of the CDs she lend.....
yeah..i *heart* Jaci Velasquez
I especially like this song of hers..
"There are days when I feel the best of me is ready to begin
Then they're days when I feel i'm letting go and soaring on the wind
Cause i've learned in laughter or in pain how to survive
I get on my knees, I get on my knees
There I am before the love that changes me
See I don't know how but there's power when i'm on my knees
I can be in a crowd or by myself or almost anywhere
When I feel there's a need to talk with God, he is Emmanuel
When I close my eyes, no darkness there
There's only light
I get on my knees, I get on my knees
There I am before the love that changes me
See I don't know how but there's power in the blue skies, in the midnight
When i'm on my knees
I get on my knees, I get on my knees
There I am before the love that changes me
See I don't know how but there's power when i'm on my
Oh, When i'm on my
When i'm on my knees"
=)
I dont know why, but i m having a feeling tht i am losing a very good friend of mine, apart from all those who left, and leaving for studies. I feel tht i m losing a close friend eventhough we are in malaysia. Hmm..i think it's just me.
oh oh ...received an email from si qin!! yay! so fast aye?? and i receive a picture of us in AYA festival! (and probably the only picture we took la)
this was taken while waiting for Sonicflood to come out for the autograph session.
i ate indo mee!! hahaha..so much for having soft diet for a week huh. Aih...i sudah tak peduli la.
Anyway, prayer meeting was good today. God's presence was there, and the HOly spirit was leading the whole meeting. We didnt had our usual 'break-into-groups' thing, but we worshipped throughout. it was once again refreshing, and pastor prayed for me. He said something tht i never thought i would need it. oh well...will analysed tht further during my quiet time.
hmm...What does it mean to be totally satisfied by God?
Many a times, we human wanna satisfy ourselves with so many things. the latest fashion, the best food, to have someone to call our own, our different cravings, the body figure we wished for, etc.... and yet, God asked us to find satisfaction in Him only.
Jesus found satisfaction in God. He said the son of God has no where to lay His head on. He asked His disciple to take no unneccesary stuff when going on a journey. If tht principle is applied in our present, mann..! i dont know how am i gonna survive. But Jesus did. And He led a fulfilled life.
What bout us? I would lie if i say i felt true satisfaction. WE are always on the look out for something to satisfy our craving, to satisfy our longing for something. And we found something, we always have tht 'its never enough' mentality. How? How come we have so much more physical stuff compared to Jesus, and yet we arent as satisfied as Him? He didnt have iPod, yet He has joy. He didnt have chau kuey teow, yet He didnt complain. He didnt have levis jeans, but He still look cool (havent seen Him in person, but i believe He does!).
I have lots more to learn bout true satisfaction. And i believe we can achieve that by relying fully on God, and not on our social status. Many of us are struggling with finding our life partner, and we always have this mindset of 'if i am attached to someone, i will be satisfied'. And mind u, Valentine's Day is just around the corner, and yeah, u get my drift.
But what if u have the handsome-st guy ? what if u have the latest fashion clothing? u will end up wanting more, isnt it? its never enough, isnt it? THt's because we have not fully understood God's love, and GOd's joy! ANd once we found our true satisfcation in Him, ALL these physical stuff will be added. MAtt 6: 33 rmbr? "SEek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and ALL these things will be given unto u as well".
note tht the 'seeking' part came first ? rather than "all these things will be added IF u seek Him first".
aNd when we r fully satisfied by Him, we wont even care about those physical stuff anymore. If we can achieve tht, i can say tht u have fully achieve full satisfaction.
And it also means tht when we seek God, we REALLy seek God. its not 'Oh, i want tht certain thing. i haave to seek GOd first, then GOd will surely give it to me'. Well, if we have tht mindset, i will doubt whether is it truly seeking GOd for seeking sake, or for getting certain craving sake.
Jane--> *guilty*
open ur heart to God. ONly when we are fully satisfied by Him only, God will do miracles in our lives. Who knows, u may just get what u wish for! =) GOd wants us to live our life to the fullest as well. (john 10 : 10)
Come for Campus City tmr. We r having Ps Sandra to speak on 'What a gurl wants'. It would be cool and funky, i promise. Do check it out! its at 3pm tmr at the hub (3 floors above AYA cafe, opp taylors subang). Be there! *wink*
[there's a door gift as well for the girls, but guys, do come for the talk too, nevermind the door gift!]
Have a pleasant night, u awesome people! =)
~me~ at 12:36 AM
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Tuesday, February 06, 2007
EMO EMO EMO
I have now one less friend to hang out with, to share my heart out and to makan with. *pouts*
~me~ at 11:45 PM
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Monday, February 05, 2007
.....MIA from home for 12 hours.
Yeah...i was out since 11 am, till 11pm.
First, went over to So Hon to claim my free hair cut. New look. hahah...u have to judge for urself when u do see me.
Then, head on to KJ lrt station to pick up Si Qin, and i had Caffe Mocha from Starbucks! YEah, tht's the legacy tht si qin wanna leave in me before she heads back. Who knows, i may just go down to the road of starbucks crave in future. i know who to blame. =p
Received a bag of stuff from si qin , and when i opened it, i almost screamed. This cheeky lil girl gave me so much stuff, and i love every thing she gave! mann! i was speechless.
To Siqin --> THank You so much, and u have been such a blessing to me and to CC whenever u come back to visit us. So sad u have to head back so soon. I m sure God has a path painted for u to walk on even as u serve faithfully in tscf and ocf. stay strong, and looking fwd to see u the next time u head back ..SOON. *hint hint*
I will miss u si qin, infact, i am missing u already. *sob* and i didnt get to have a picture with u this time, so just make do with this la.
Ahhh...i had my choc indulgence. BTW, HApPY BuRfDAY LiLIAN! Thank u for the lovely meal u prepared for us and was indeed fun hanging out in ur house. (her house is so beeautiful and huge!).
Tmr i shall head on to my wisdom tooth surgery. Aww.... yeah, another week of porridge and soya milk. Pfft. *whines* and my new haircut doesnt fit well with swelling. =/
Heading to bed soon. pls do pray for my wisdom tooth surgery tmr, tht it will go smooth. This would be a diff dentist from the previous one. a not so experienced one, but hopefully good enough. thanks ppl! =)
~me~ at 11:32 PM
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Sunday, February 04, 2007
REFRESHED
.....yup, had my rest, and gonna have more rest soon. hehe!
wednesday all nite prayer meeting was awesome. Was pumped up by a luscious meal in italianese belanja-ed by a good friend of mine (u know who u r *grins*), and with the company of two close friends of mine. =) thank you, you and you!
back to all nite prayer meeting--> Time passed pretty fast, and it means tht i had fun. There was no sense of limitation in time when we were worshipping the Lord. We just dwell, and were soaked into His presence immensely. God visited us that night. I felt it.
Even when i took on worship leading at the second half of it, i didnt follow the set of songs i arranged. it was so spontaneous and i wasnt the one leading it already, the holy spirit was. And during the second part of it, i received a voice, tht led me another step closer to my breakthrough.
As i was kneeling down, i was crying from deep inside from freedom. i didnt had a good day. my day was reaaaly gloomy and all the possible thoughts tht can cause me to be depress came all at once tht morning. i wanted freedom. freedom to be freed from being emotional dependant on something tht cant be dependant on.
I prayed a prayer,and in tht prayer, i said a sentence which kinda surprised me too. and tht sentence is still clear in my mind now, and i do believe its from God.
"God, why am i holding onto something so much, tht i neglect holding on to Your word tht gives joy?"
I stopped.
"Jane! did u hear what u just prayed? you just answered ur own cry of freedom!"
And indeed. Instead of holding on to GOd's word which gives me joy, i m holding on more to something tht can only lead to depression.
So, my freedom lies in the choice tht i have to make, to choose which one i wanna hold on to.
God works in unique ways huh?
My breakthrough is still not here yet, but i do believe i m getting closer! =) Thank you, Lord for Your strength and Your mighty word.
tht was the highlight of the nite for me. Though i have to say my stamina wasnt tht good, but i managed to stay awake throughout the night. And who said all night prayer meeting aint cool? Try it out, and u will never regret it! this is my third time in an all nite prayer meeting, and i m still loving it!
AYA festival was a blast! Enjoyed and received the most during morning conference, and the speakers were Ps Danial Ho, Ps Dr Philip Lyn (he's cool), and Rev Wong Kim Kong. Had very sleep the day b4, got up feeling a lil drowsy and headache-y, but was totally refreshed with all the input i received. Thank you , Lord!
I learnt a lot while helping out as a volunteer. There were many times where i almost burst-ed, and turned into complaining mode. Thank God tht He hit me fast and reminded tht i m serving Him, and no one else.
Complaning mode is a dangerous warning of disunity, and i know tht if i went on being on tht mode, i would have caused issues tht its very unpleasant. Yet, God's grace and mercy was so abundant, and He managed to pull me out fast before i do or say anything stupid.
I enjoyed every moment of serving in the two days, though at times i would *love* to be in the arena to join in the worship, i know GOd has purposed me in tht certain station for a reason. Till now, dont know why, but He is in control.
Missed the annointing service by Ps Jean Lim though, but its okaye.i had my share of fun too. Went back to church to be with my youth and be a part of our first major project. ahaha...funnily, on the way back, radio was playing the theme song from 'Mission impossible" .
Aanyway, i had a fun time helping out in givin out mandarin oranges to the community. REally proud of my team members. They did such a marvelous job. All of us came out of our comfort zone tht day. Was reallly amused by a certain situation encountered by my team member and an auntie. hahaha... we were all blessed too as we witnessed the happy and grateful faces.
We faced rejection too, but we learnt to put on a smile and say a simple 'okaye! have a nice day!' , instead of throwing oranges at them. (though tht would be fun BUT ...)
Ahhh.....my week couldnt be better aye?
Dont know what i would feel again for the coming weeks in february, but all i know is tht as long as i hold on to God's word, it will give me joy.
Pls do keep me in prayer, all u mighty prayer warriors! thanks! =)
~me~ at 11:57 PM
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