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Thursday, December 21, 2006
Dear Lord,
"All i want for christmas is freedom from emotional bondage"
Tht would be the biggest miracle tht can happen this christmas for me.
I claim victory over my life, tht i would be set free from whatever tht is binding me to move on.
I claim power to say no to things that are not meant for me.
I claim strength to move tht one step, and another step, to the door of freedom.
I know the door is open for me to be free, but its as though i do not want to step out.
I claim the ability to be able to look and talk to a certain somebody without having an inner stirred up emotions.
I claim for peace and joy to be in me no matter what happens.
I also claim for salvation for my dad this christmas!
In Jesus name,
Amen
~me~ at 10:41 PM
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"dum..dee dum...dee dum"
*taps feet, taps hand on tigh, humming..*
"Angels we have heard on high,
Sweetly singing o'er the plains
And the mountains in reply
Echoing their joyous strain.
GLO----------RIA
In excelsis DEO! "
Ahh~~ is tht time of the year again! me likey christmas very very much! *grins* =D
Dont u just love the atmosphere?
The decorations, the carol singings, the shopping (not to mention the sales), lovely gifts, lovely meals, the relaxation (public holiday!), the smiles, etc..
you name it!
Probably snow for some country..
tht's all great, isnt it?
When i was young, i use to beg my parents to drive me to the hotels during christmas eve, to have supper, and also to enjoy the carolers and the decorations. Mom and dad were so kind enough to brave through the jam to satisfy my demand. =)
Then the anticipation for the gifts. The curiosity. what's behind those shiney wrappers?
The shouts of "Merry Christmas!"
The smiles and the hugs.
*looks at a corner dreamily*
Mann..am i blessed or what? =)
But...what if the deco is not there? what if there's no carolers? what if there's no gifts?
How come some of them, without gifts, they are still so happy?
Why?
"isnt Christmas all about gifts and songs?" -->tht;s what i would ask when i was young.
=)
Well..
shud i have gifts in the first place? Christmas is not my bday also.
then whose?
haha..yeah..i know most if not all of u have the answer already..
yup yup ...Jesus is the bday boy.
But do u know what tht means exactly?
It means, the attention is on the bday boy! as simple as tht.
But many of us, we celebrate the boy's bday. but we dun pay attention to him.
Its like we go to a bday party, but just ignoring the fact tht the bday is the reason why we are celebrating. But we go on and on talking bout other stuff, everything apart from the bday boy.
We get the gifts instead, and not him!
we sometimes dont even bother his existence!
Come on... let's get our attention back to the bday boy alright? not the deco of 'his' party. not the mascot they got for him. its all about HIM, Jesus!!
Infact, everyday should be about Him!
Without Him, i dont think Christmas would even exist.
I m proud to be called a christian. There u go..i just said it.
Are u?
It doesnt matter if u didnt get any gifts , it doesnt matter whether u get to have a turkey, or a christmas tree...it doesnt matter. The main person exist, and He is always with us, so why worry over all those things? He can fulfil your needs, and most important, His PEACE and JOY!
Let me repeat..HIS PEACE AND JOY!
What's the point of having gifts and christmas tree, but without peace and joy?
WHat's the point of santa greeting u, but without peace and joy?
Its my prayer and hope for all of u to be able to experience His peace and JOy, over your life, in ANY situation, only if u would want to put your trust and hope in Him. Dont be sad , dont be blue if u didnt get the things u wished for, or to be able to spend with the ppl u love, but this christmas, let it be a start for u to put ur trust in Him, JEsus, and taste and see that HE is good!
=)
To my friends, who do not know Him, come on, give Him a try...
I did, and i never regret.
Though i have my tears moments, my tears eventually got dried up, because Jesus was there to wipe it off from me.
Though i have my whining moments, it stopped , because Jesus was there to absord all in.
Though i have my 'broken heart' moments, but my heart is still in one piece, because Jesus was there to mend it.
Though i have my sad moments, i smiled at last, because Jesus injected His joy in me once again.
Though i have my troubled moments, i was calmed at last, because Jesus injected his peace.
I have more...but i will let u explore more, when u say yes to Jesus. =)
If u do not have a church to go to this sunday or Monday morning, our church, BBK (Balai Baptis Kalvari) is always wide open for u. We have a sunday morning service and Christmas morning service, both at 1030am.
Come and join us! Its gonna be a really simple and sweet service, nothing heavy, with a few light and easy performances, and songs, and of course the message!
Our add : 10, SS4/17 . (between KJ and Tmn Bahagia LRT station)
I will be expecting u *wink*! be there.
~me~ at 12:43 AM
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Tuesday, December 19, 2006
i have a partner in bed now ---> Picoe Patrick!
hahhaa...thanks to eleanor, sook wai, jason chan, tim, jason khong, aaron, michelle ,melissa, and lucas! its definitely the 'biggest' and the cutest gift i ever received! And also to sook wai's frens (guang and nicholas kok), thanx for joining the ice cream treat.
also to sheena, thx for the gift, very useful indeed! =)
okie...will write more later...
~me~ at 7:59 PM
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Thursday, December 14, 2006
Midnight fun!
Requirements:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title to answer the questions. (Lyrics may be inserted as well, depending on your preference.)
4. DON'T CHEAT.
1) How am I feeling today?
Delta Goodrem - "Be strong" (yes! i need tht!)
2) Where will I get married?
Casting Crowns - "Who Am I?" I m a flower quickly fading....vapour in the wind... (ok..i m confused, in a garden maybe?)
3) What is my best friend's theme song?
Il Divo - "Feelings" (hmm..i wonder)
4) What was high school like?
Equippers Church - "God of So much more" (yes! so much more than exams!)
5) What is the best thing about me?
John Mayer - "Dreaming with a broken heart" (oh mann! I need a life!)
6) How is today gonna be?
Atomic Kittens - "Someone like me." Dont let ur head rule ur heart...let all your emotions run free.. (what the??? nonsense!)
7) What is in store this week?
Incognito - "Still a Friend of Mine"
8) What song describes my parents?
Il Divo - "Unbreak My heart" (huh? why is my WMP playing all this?)
9) How is my life going?
Dream Theater - "Hollow Years" (eesh..am i tht boring ?? )
10) What song will they play at my funeral?
Sun Yan Zi - "Yu Jian" [means meeting up] (yes...very optimistic! we will meet up in heaven!)
11) How does the world see me?
Guang Liang - "Wo ni De SHou" [means holding ur hands]
12) What do my friends see in me?
Il Divo - "Nella Fantasia" (whatever tht means...it sounds nice. erm, fantasia means fantastic??)
13) Do people secretly lust about me?
Dream Theater -" You not Me". lyric goes : Its all about u, not me~~~(yeah....dont concentrate on me too much! fix YOUR life up dude~)
14) How can I make myself happy?
Il Divo - "Unchained Melody" (Yeah yeah....music!)
15) What should I do with my life?
David Powter - "Love You lately" (Love who?)
16) Will I ever have children?
DHT - "Someone" (Phew...at least someone, hahaha)
17) What is some good advice?
Dream Theater - "Surrounded" (surround urself with God. and good company!)
18) What do I think my current theme song is?
Jaclynn Victor - "Gemilang" (i feel energised!)
19) What does everyone else think of my current life?
Dream Theater - "Metropolis" (Do i act like Lois Lane?)
20) What type of men do I like?
Author Unknown - "Before The Throne Of God" lyrics : Before the throne of God above, i have a strong , a perfect plea..." (yeah...God knows my plea!)
21) Will I get married?
Jason Upton - "No Sacrifice" (Yikes! good news or bad news?)
22) Where will I live?
Il Divo - "Mama" (LOL!!!! I will be living with my mom!)
23) What should I do with my love life?
Il Divo - "My Way" (WOoohoooO!)
24) What will my dying words be?
Dream Theater - "Anna Lee" (HUH???)
25) When Im having sex I say?
Il Divo - "Everytime I look at You" ( no comments)
26) When (not what) I meet a guy/girl for the first time I say
Wyonna and Gary Chapman - "I'll Fly away" (hahaha...!!)
27) When my parents are angry I say
Rihana - "Final Goodbye" (as u can see, i have a very very short temper, and short patience)
~me~ at 1:40 AM
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Tagged by Joshua
Layer ONE : On the Outside
Name : Jane Loke
Birth Date : 7th Dec.
Eye Color : Emm....*looks into mirror* i think its dark brown
Hair Color : Black I guess.
Righty or Lefty : Righty.
Zodiac Sign :Sagi!!.
Layer TWO : On the Inside
Your Heritage : Saya Anak Malaysia
Your Fears : Rejection
Your Weakness : Procastination.
Your Perfect Pizza : with loads of cheese, and without red or green pepper.
Layer THREE: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up: i am alive~!
Your Bedtime: Ranges from 12 to 2 in the morning.
Your most missed memory: Being cheeky as a kid without any worries
Layer FOUR:
Your PickPepsi or Coke: i want sprite!
McDonald's or Burger King: KFC leh?
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: Nike.
Lipton tea or Nestea: Nestea i think? or is it boh tea?
Chocolate or vanilla: eee....i dun like vanila, choclate anytime
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino.
Layer FIVE : Do you...
Smoke : How can one stand it?
Have a crush : hahahahahha....
school: Monash
Want to get married : =)
Believe in yourself : i do.
Think you're a health freak : Er.....ask my mom.
Layer SIX: In the Past Month...
Drank alcohol : No.
Gone to the mall : yup! Sales on!
Been on stage : Yeah.
Eaten sushi : No.
Dyed your hair : No..not planning to.
Layer SEVEN: Have You Ever?...
Played a stripping game : No.
Changed who you were to fit in : No.
Layer EIGHT:
Age you're hoping to be married : Emmm....prolly after 25 before 30
Layer NINE: In A Girl...(in a guy can ar?)
Best eye color : blue or brown, something tht i can stare for a very long time without having eye sore..
Best hair color : black with no dandruff.
Short or long hair : short please!
Layer TEN: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : This?
1 hour ago : Reading my bible.
4.5 hours ago : ate breakfast with friends.
1 month ago : relaxing at home since its after exam.
1 year ago : refer '1 month ago'.
Layer ELEVEN: Finish The Sentence
I love : a lot of things.
I feel : normal?
I hate : insects.
I hide: letters
I need: to eat now
Layer TWELVE: Tag 5 people
1. the first 5 who do this survey thing, and inform me, gets a free ice cream potong from me.
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p/s : if u did it and u didnt tell me, too bad la huh, and no joshua, u cant be tagged by me. =p
~me~ at 11:02 AM
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Monday, December 11, 2006
HOW BIG IS YOUR GOD?
Though i claim that my God is bigger than my problems, do i really actually live it out?
Today was one of the emo time again. It's one of those times again when my expectations about certain stuff were not met. I am waiting for something. And impatience creeps in, very subtle, and suffering. I have forgotten tht i have a God, a God tht can satisfy my need. And even if i wait and wait and wait and wait and nothing happens, well, GOd will supply all my needs according to His riches and glories.
Or probably i just need to be content, with what i have.
Everything seems to be back to square one
....yet i am not giving in.
My B-day just passed a few days ago, and it was meaningful.
First, would like to thank a person, who kinda 'celebrated' my bday by chatting with me for about 1-2 hours at midnight, although u found it out by asking me to tell u. I know you are the kind who doesnt read blogs, and claim it to be for sissy(s) only (and it is NOT), but anyhow, just a simple gesture of me thanking u la. Its been a blessing to have a friend like u, bold enough to point out what's wrong with me, and also being there to hear me rant.
Secondly, would like to thank another person, whom i know also doesnt really read blogs. You kinda kept me company indirectly. Thanks for making my day special by little ways that though it may not significant, but it is to me.
Thirdly, thanks to my parents, who brought me to Bakerzin for lunch on thurs. It was a very pricey meal, and yet u all gave in to me. hehe!
Fourthly, and to my relatives , friends, who gave me presents, and cakes, and also the simple supper meal in Lotus at midnight, thanks!
fifthly, to the group who went to silent prayer retreat with me, thanks for the cake, the prayers of blessings, and just by making me happy throughout the trip.
sixth-ly, thanks for the supper yesterday in Ming Tien, and the two slices of cakes. Its simple . yet sweet and meaningful.
seventh-ly, for all the smses u ppl send. I am happy because i am remembered.
eigth-ly, for the wishes thru msn, especially those from overseas. thanks!
i hope i didnt miss out anyone at all... but if i did, banyak banyak maaf yea?
I will talk more bout the silent prayer retreat another day..right now, i need sleep.
~me~ at 12:10 AM
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Monday, December 04, 2006
Its december already.
Was reading the post i posted up on january 2006. HHahaa..it seems like years ago since i posted it up.
How was MY year? i would say its different,although the first part was a lil similar to 2005, but definitely different. I have moved on way more compared to a few months back, and yet it doesnt seem tht i have move on.
"huh?" u may asked.
I still miss my high school friends.
It's not the same. None of you guys are in the same class as me, and its kinda sad sometimes tht i do not have the same experiences as most of u share, and many a times its hard for me to share my experiences with u guys.
Changes of life do change a person. All of us dislike changes in one way or another. sometimes i m pretty tired of adapting, and making new friends, and building the bridge wth another new person, and yet sometimes the bridge is not strong enough, u will always feel the gap in between.
I miss my close friends who went to overseas.
Msn and Email are never good enough, but i have to live with it. The jokes we normally share, and the times we go to each other house, can never be replaced just by msn and email. Many a times even as i just open my email account to compose a mail, i dont seem to write anything out, cuz its not the same as talkin face to face! in the end, i just ended up signing out of the email acccount.
And then when u make pretty good new friends, in one time or the other, they are bound to leave to somewhere else, whether to overseas ke, or to somewhere else which u wont be seeing them often, ppl tht u normally serve with move on to another season, or probably not serving in the same church. The 'left out' feeling is always lingering somewhere whenever a topic tht is not of the same interest is brought up, and u see closeness of other ppl happening, but not in ur own life.
sounds like a self pity party huh? yeah, realised tht too. I can either choose to dwell on it, and say 'poor me', or move on. 2007 is gonna be a year tht i wanna take more defined steps, to move on with what i have been dwelling for past months/years.
sorry guys, this post is a lil emo today, cuz i'm doing a lil reflection here.
OK..so december is here, like i said earlier.
December is a month which i totally look fwd to, and totally do not look fwd to.
(what's with me and ironics today?)
I look fwd to Christmas!!! Yup! probably the only thing i look fwd to. =p BUt yeah... my church is having service on the 24th and 25th morning. There will be a presentation , from BBK Youth (ehehhe), and they will be doing choral speaking! cool aye? They will be presenting on the 25th morning itself. SO dont miss it!
Another event is in ACTS church, from the 23rd to 25th of december, with their production of 'roadworks village'. check out their website www.aya.org.my for more info!
Oh oh...not only christmas, but i look fwd for arrival of Lim Li Shawn and SOo Suet Yee!!! U guys better come back, if not i will go all the way to aus and NZ to potong both of u into pieces. =p and SEAN IM too!
A random note:
High expectations do bring ones hopes down badly when it is not met.
Lesson learnt.
NOt really in a mood to blog more. Will do when i have more energy to be long winded.
~me~ at 3:22 PM
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Friday, December 01, 2006
"Throw me a lifeline..."
Hahah..yeah..this song is stuck in my head now. =)
ACOUSTIC NITE was a blast! For those who didnt come, u guys shud be ashame of yourself.. haha..JUST KIDDING. =) but yeah, 29-11-06 nite would be one of the memorable day tht i will look back and it will put a smile on my face.
I started tht day meeting up with si qin, and sending her off to Taiwan for her mission trip. IT's good to be able to exchange of what we r doing in m;sia, and what's she's gonna do in Taiwan. I am excited for her as well, and even as she is there right now, may God's favour continue to be upon her. =)
Then, headed to AYA kafe, and helping out in the cleaning and arrangement for the nite. Though it was tiring, but it was good. Thanks to the 3 lucas(s) , joshua and sunil, for master planning the arrangement. It was fab!
We had prayer at 715 pm, and knowing tht GOd hears and ANSWERS our prayer, gave us more strength to move on with our agenda. Sound check was done and comes 8pm! David was the MC for the nite, and the first performance was by Ryan, and his classical piece.
Oh..did i tell u tht Mia Palencia came?? If i didnt, now i am telling ya, she came! From the time we invited her, till the end of acoustic nite, GOd's hand was continously upon us. She agreed to perform, and she did. SHe came early for the soundcheck as well! and best part of it? SHe said to all of us tht if acoustic nite is gonna be a monthly thing, she's gonna be there ! Isnt tht great?
Apart from Mia's and Ryan's awesome performances, there's ben shyen, michelle, ann nyee, tessie, my brother and his friends, joshua and valentio, andy yeoh, Ps Alex, bryan limus, and eleanor!! thanx guys for performing, and being so co-operative during the nite! =)
The nite left with many curiousities in the ppl's mind, like 'what's CCM all about?' , 'what does "THe Ground Floor" (formerly known as AYA Kafe) offer?' 'what is AYA?', and etc... we had so many opportunities to even explain to them, and tell them about us. and most importantly, that we r christians, not any other ordinary club. Apart from all the great performers, there is a GREAT man we want them to be connected to, tht is JESUS CHRIST!
Was the nite a success? Yes is what i would like to say. Seed has been planted, and i do hopeand pray, all this new faces we saw tht nite, will not only be attending the acoustic nite solely, but will join us at the 3rd floor every other week, to WORSHIP GOD!
So much more is happening in my life right now, and i have another testimony to share! I pass ALL my subjects! If u were to read my previous posts, u can read tht i was a lil scared of not passing one of my papers, and for me, i seldom have tht fear or feeling tht i will actually fail a paper. But God was so merciful and He did a miracle! I passed tht paper, and though i didnt do as well as my previous semesters, but i know the results this time, was more than i deserved. i knew i didnt do as well, and had a rough estimation of what my results are gonna be like, (including one fail), but no...GOd gave me more than i deserved!
Does praying b4 u study works? YES it does
Does praying b4 the paper works? YES it does
Does prayer works? OF COURSE IT DOES!
All glory to GOD!
for once i was happy with a 'p' in my result. but, nope, i will not stop there, and this motivated me to even bring myself up another level, in my studies.
sometimes God doesnt give us all perfect results, because we wouldnt even learn to appreciate it.
Thanx again to MOSS-ers again, and i wouldnt have done it with u guys too! =)
~me~ at 4:30 PM
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