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Friday, September 29, 2006
Psalms 34
" I will always thank the Lord;
I will never stop praising Him.
I will peaise Him for what He has done;
may all who are oppressed listen and be glad!
Proclaim with me the Lord's greatness;
let us praise His name together!
I prayed to the Lord, and He answered me;
He freed me from all my fears.
The oppressed look to Him and are glad;
they will never be disappointed.
The helpless call to Him, and He answers;
He saves them from ALL their troubles.
His angel guards those who honour the Lord
and rescue them from danger.
Find out yourself how good the Lord is.
Happy are those who find safety with Him.
Honour the Lord, all His people;
those who obey Him have ALL they need.
Even lions go hungry for lack of food,
but those who obey the Lord lack NOTHING good."
(fast forward to vs 17)
"The righteous call to the Lord, and He listens;
He rescues them from ALL their troubles.
THe Lord is near to those who are discouraged
HE saves those who have lost all hope."
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I read this psalm before i go to sleep every night. It's so comforting to know tht there's a GOd who cares, and not only tht, who delivers me from ALL my troubles. I use to doubt whether am i righteous, (because God only hears the righteous), and i remembered romans 3: 22 tht says we are made righteous through our faith in Jesus Christ. So, reality check, is my faith in Jesus Christ? answer: yes. So..i am righteous! and God hears and delivers me!
Even through this time of emotional pain, i know GOd knows and He cares,and He delivers! God is gracious enough for the timing too as i m on hols right now, and have a lil more time to chill, and also for the healing process to take place.
~me~ at 12:52 AM
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
i m feeling very numb now.
i had it, for another time.
and who to blame? myself and only myself, for being such a pain in the neck.
For being so stubborn at times. for doing things according to my own feelings.
What's wrong with me? do i have to experience 'this' to learn my lesson?
i am really sleepy now, but i am afraid to sleep. i am afraid tht i will dream dreams tht will involve this matter.
i am afraid of getting the headache of the after effect of crying.
"God, please keep me sane!! I dont want myself to be found in a self pity party, i dun want myself to be found emotionally dependent on something else, i want to be found complete in You! Lord, please be near me through this time, i feel alone, and i dont wanna be alone. Its a terrible feeling of having this guiilt in me, and i cant forgive myself, and also the other party. I wanna live in the fullness of what You have instored for me, but first of all, help me pull this through. I need your strength to face the future, and also your joy to sustain me."
To my friends who knows what's going on, i m really sorry for being so cold and so not participative eventhough i know u guys are trying ur best to cheer me up. thanks for all the kind gestures of asking me out and all, i really appreciate it. Thanks for the scoldings,it really teached me to look at things in a different perspective. I will be strong, and by God's grace, i know i will pull thru this, just give me time.
Especially to Si Qin, thanks for ur call all the way from NZ, u didnt really have to, but i was really touched by your call. And also your email, it did encouraged me. You dun have to be physically here with me to be there for me, just with your prayers, it means a lot. i dunno how i can repay u.
~me~ at 12:25 AM
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Saturday, September 23, 2006
Heys heys..!
finally, a week break!
Now now...before u monaash-ians shout "hooray", here goes a big HOWEVER.
Heavy assignments are due right after the break. Sigh... oh well, look at the brigth side, at least i have a week to do my stuff b4 major exams hit.
September is almost over, and it has been busy. My september was never this busy before. Its like back to back i will be out somewhere, and i seldom came home for dinner lately. Aiks.
Oh well, this blog would be a lot of pictures, so enjoy.. =)
BTW, campus camp pictures held on Aug as promised. hehe! (sorry, back track to aug a lil)
the road leading to our camp site.
worship practice!
view of the cozy hall.... we were chilling out.
a lil overall view of the place...
Pastor's playground.
see what i mean? (ps: tht's not pastor though.)
Ogawa waterfall!!! syok-nye!
Ellie and I!
before we went for the natural massage.
CHILLING OUT..
Yup....now for events happened on september.
Sept 4 - - Jie Ying's and Carol's birthday!
Sept 9 - - Kay Lyn's wedding!
It was beautiful, grand and extravagant! need more elaboration? let the pictures do the justice!
During the morning ceremony,
The ushers, and the bride's parents (from left: Ja-neh, Uncle SL, Aunt YH, Jen, W.E, Jin)
camwhoring during the ceremony, and before the performance. hehe!
BBK groupie!
Dinner time..
a lil dark, but we stood up to welcome the Tong.
shark fin soup! *bite*
Dr Tong and Dr Tong.
"Don't mess with me and my cloth!"
the beauties on my table... ( from left: YH, Eu, KY, Jingle)
Sheena and I! She's hot! *sizzles*
KY and I! She so pweety in tht maroon dress!
My fav cousin! She's so lovely in tht dress.. =)
Table 5!
Muah punya family .
With the Dr Tong(S)...
The MC of the night.
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OKay...we have only reached sept 9... hahaha..patient patient..loads more.
Sept 10 - Eleanor's bday surprise! muahahha..it was a success, thanks to sook wai and JAson Khong and the SU bunch! Ellie, glad u had fun =) IT was held in modestos sri hartamas. It really burnt a hole in my pocket, but it was worth it. I love tht place, the ambience, atmosphere, everything!
the burfday gurl !
First half of the groupie
second half..
chilling out in another area of modestos.
[ JK: look at my face! so uncle aye?" All of us : *nods*]
"Er..... u want visa or mastercard?"
uncle khong, SW, cina-mui
ellie and cina mui
*sizzles*
somehow we have the affinity for the sofa..
Outside soda club. Poor ellie, forced to make a round in the club, while SOokie, CY and I waited outside. This is a group pic outside. I like the lightings tho.
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sept 12 -- Melissa's birthday!
It was held in swensons, since its tuesday.BUT so many ice cream flavours were not available. However, i still had my yummy raisin! whee!
(hm..somehow the pictures are not loading...i will display the pictures next time, sorry.)
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Sept 16-- I had my hair cut and went for Taylor's play titled 'Mousetrap'. The author of this story is Agatha Christie. Its about a murder mystery, and xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. I wont tell u the story, who ask u not to go for the play? ahhaha.. Kudos to the performing arts team, and special cheer to JOnathan Foo! ahhaha.. He was such a natural actor. All the other actors and actresses had to practice the british accent, Jon Foo's natural! ehhe..sorry, no piccies on the play.
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Sept 18 - Sookie's birthday!!! makan-ed in Jack's place in sunway piramid. Again, it did burnt a hole in my pocket, but it's worth it. HOpe u enjoyed your birthday yeah! Oh, and we surprised her in KLIA later tht night when she was sending off CY to UK. Tim, Jason and I waited for an hour at a secluded corner behind Eden. I was amused at the 'wonders' of what the two 'big immature' kids could come out with. Pretended to be Miss Malaysia, playing bumper trolly...what else? FInally, the call from Ellie came, and then we went to burger king. Tim was on the trolly holdin the cake, Jason pushed the trolly, and me taking care of the candles! ahahah... Too bad, not many pictures about KLIA. =/
with da hot bday gurl!
at Jack's place.
In KLIA burger king....(i only have one)
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Sept 19- Went to sunway piramid again, and watched "Little man", with JK, SW and Ellie. ITs an ok show only la, not much of a hoo haa. Night, went to swensons SS2 to chill again. This time, Tim bought his sista! Glad to meet her tho, for the first time!
EARTHQUAKE!!! *meow*
another one with sookie.
groupie! (oops! sorry Jason C, ur face kena cut. Dont blame anyone, u adjusted the camera yourself =p)
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Sept 20-- E-li-a-nor's bday! Celebrated her bday in sunway piramid (reality check : third in a row), at nandos! Then, had another surprise for her in AYA cafe.
a not so candid picture.
groupie again! saying nandos is good!
Then, head to AYA cafe, to do some arrangement since CC service will be held in the cafe, FOr the first time! =)
Worship practice with only two acoustic guitars...
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Sept 21 -- Campus city service held in AYA cafe for the first time! Hm..i dun have any pictures on tht, have to wait for michie. It was a different experience altogether, and i like it! *smilez*. Despite the heat, i still did enjoy GOd's presence. It reminds me of those underground churches who may suffer even worst hear than ours, and how blessed we are to have such a cozy place to worship. Lucas did a great job preaching on F-A-I-T-H! Check out www.campuscity.org.my for the detailed version of his preachin. ITs a cool site, and i really hope everyone could at least have a look. FUll of interesting stuff, lively tagboard too! so, pls do visit.
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Sept 22 -- Went to sunway piramid (fourth time in the week) after class, since 5pm class ended because our lecturer wanted to prepare herself for monash ball. Issh! WE were suppose to go for the ball too! hmph! ANyway, i had an enjoyable day, so it made up for it. Went and watch 'You, Me, and Dupree' . Way better than Little man. WAs with sw, jason and tim. Ellie and Addy dumped us for shopping. =( Then..we went over to Jason's house to watch "I not stupid too". Finally, i get to watch it. AFter tht, had dinner with bryan in SS15 before CG to do some last minute catching up b4 he flies to UK. Aww....
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Sept 23 (today) -- a-not-so-surprise for bryan's farewell. Bryan, if u r reading this, hope u enjoyed yourself k? it was his last Youth meeting for this year , and he is flying off to London next friday. thankx to the BBK youth for helping out in the farewell party, and to Ed and Ern for organizing the game, and also to sheena and jo to help out putting the food together.
preparing the food. SHeena and JO cutting the cakes.
human chain?
no idea what they did outside, the last heard, they were forced to duck walk. good exercise before eating i guess? hehe?
i was forced to eat this green cake, thanks to some weird sense of cartoon taste of Bryan. (of all cartoon, tweety bird? bryan? ) TOo bad JasonC not here, he would have finish it since its green.We had this game, get-to-know-bryan. ONe of the question was 'what is his favourite cartoon character'. WE thought naruto or something la..mana tau, TWEETY bird! KKK (malay version of LOL -- Ketawa Keluar Kuat).
ps: tht KKK thing was Darren's idea, according to Sookie.
speech ke? atau marah-ing?
OH well..finally done with the updating. *wipes sweat*.
Just some random pictures on what we did instrumental pratical. IT was our turn to do the AA S experiment. We find it really cool! the red red thing u see is flame. DIfferent components, gives diff colour.
sookie putting in the sample
da AAS machine
da flame!
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okies..gtg sleep now. Tmr will my team's last week leading the kids worship for the year. honestly, for once, i kinda miss it. I really enjoyed myself this time, compared to the previous times. i'm sure my team agrees that we had fun. Seeing the kids learing something, singing the songs... ahh.. will put up the pictures next time..i am t-i-r-e-d.
GOodnight WORLD! GOd loves you!
~me~ at 8:23 PM
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Monday, September 11, 2006
[this post was written a few weeks ago, but not posted up yet..hehe..today's date: 23th sept, day written , 11/9 sept]
*yawns*
*rubs eyes*
I overslept today...again. Been sleeping very late and i didnt get to rest during the weekend.
Let's see..
Friday:
Had classs, as usual.
Kinda disappointed tht the lecture that was suppose to be after the practical was postponed because it clashes with the microbiology exam. But if they have microbiology class at tht time, why did the students chose friday as their physio lab time? haih... in the end, sookie and i went to computer lab, thinking that probably we can get some work done, ended up doing sudoku and word seach (or something like tht) . We thought we wouldnt have the time to do our work, so we kinda dint bring our books. I normally cant do my work without my books with me. Oh wells... 2 hours was wasted on ....sudoku.
Then had CG. Had dinner with Li Hui and Sook Wai at cabana. We had fun having gurly talks...ahha! its a good thing didnt go to Sunway Piramid. I wanted to go there because sookie gave me this body shop voucher for some free makeover. Since i m going to attend Kay Lyn's wedding the next day, probably i can make appointment la. but i decided to call the body shop fellas first. Tetapi, dun have mereka punya nombor.
Hwee Jian : call 103 la.
Me: HUH?
HJ : yeah..i always do tht to ask for their cinema numbers.
*giggles*
Me: uh...okay then.
(dials 103)
Phone: "Thank u for calling TM net bla bla bla bla.......................for english, press '2'"
*presses 2*
Operator: (forgot what she says but somewhere along the lines of 'helo, may i help u?')
Me : can i have body shop number?
operator : *40347393 (*numbers are changed due to privacy)
SO i called tht number, it was the main branch i think, to ask for sp's and 1 U's.
Body shop : Why u want the numbers?
Me : Uh...to make appointment.
Geee..she sounded quite fierce.
ANYWAY, as i was saying, i am glad i did not go all the way to SP to check it out. I called them up, and in the end i have to buy something worth RM 50 b4 they give me the free makeover. No where in the voucher did it says 'free makeover when u buy RM 50 worth of BS products'. Stewpid. IT says "Get a free fabolous make over that is worth RM 50!" I read every terms and condition and nowhere did it says 'buy the product'. Haih..Marketing scheme. bluek.
Then head to CG in UNcle Ku's house.
Saturday :
Its wedding bells for Dr Kay Lyn and Dr Wei Chung.
*pipe organs plays the march*
I was putting on my lipstick and i heard a honk from jen. HAha..i was late! Quickly close the stick, rubs off the red thing on my lips, and then rushed down. Followed her because i had to be there early for ushering.
We reached there about 945...and we were early. U know what we did? ahha..we took our own sweet time to choose our parking lot. Jen actually parked at this certain lot, i was like telling her tht its not good, very hard to get out, bla bla bla... so we started changing..ahhaha.. I was so kiasu man...But hey...we were there early, so sue me!
Praise God everything went well, from the start till the end.
Will update more in the next post..
~me~ at 2:50 PM
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
listening to Ben Shyen's song...er..cant figure out the title. but anyways, i will miss tht fella, since he's off to Seremban and i wont be seeing him in Campus City. Gosh..i miss the times where he taught me how to sing, taught me bio stuff, shared his passion for GOd, prayed with him durin monday prayer times, and not to forget those oh-so-l*** jokes he told during bus trips, makan trips..Ahh..Ben ben.. if u r reading this, wish u all the best kies?
Had an unreasonable emotional turmoil lately, and its a good thing i didnt post it up, cuz i know its gonna be really ugly if i did. I almost did, but nope due to some circumstances, and i knew GOd gave those to me so tht i wont blog it out. Those who were with me in uni, i think u guys saw some 'stonning' in me for the past few days. TOday was really bad. First, i was having giddy-ness and headache. Then got some of my results of tests, which i wasnt really happy bout it. Its not so much of anger, but frustrations and dis-sastisfaction of not doing well, whereas i know i can do better than this. Oh well, learnt my lesson.
But i am feeling much better now. Probably i have talked things out, and yeah, i feel a lil free-er now. Somehow felt light. And i know GOd has always been with me. I was talking to Si Qin the other day, and really, i thank GOd for her at tht time, the right time, with the right words. Girl, u r God-sent!
I know i need to come back. I have been 'turmoil-ing' for quite along time adi, and its time to come back.
GOd is real, and indeed He is bigger than my problems.
I remember it was national day, i woke up after my nap. And i felt a sense of emptiness, and a tug in my heart. I felt as if i lost my purpose in life. And i felt really terrible. I felt it was like some sort of attack because it was right after all night prayer. The first thing i had in mind, pray in the spirit! I literally, turned sideways and started speaking in tongues. The oppression came even stronger, and i started praying stronger. Tears ran down, and i kept pressing on until i feel peace. I was in pain, mentally and emotionally. I could only cry out, and cry out to God. Though i have to say i didnt really feel 100% peaceful, but i know God was there, all the while saying "child, i am with you, keep pressing on and trusting in me."
Even through this time, i knew i had to learn how to forgive. I stilll cant forgive a certain someone,till today. It hurt so badly, and i really do not know how. The only way is to choose to forgive, by GOd's grace. And tht's the problem. I really dont feel like choosing to forgive. Probably tht's the root of all the pains i am feeling right now. I remember i preached on 'forgiveness' before during my preaching test, but i dont seem to be able to get it into my own thick skull of mine. Well, one step at a time. Since now i know the root of my problems, and slowly, but surely, one day i would be able to say 'I forgive you'. This is a choice i have to really make. I am sure, one day i would be able to testify here, in my blog, and to my friends whom i am close to , that i manage to overcome this big barrier. I am still praying for God's strength, that i will be able to utter those words, and most importantly, to tht person.
I will be okay. definitely! =)
*sings* Everything's alright, I've got Jesus in me, (hey hey hey hey hey)...
Thanks to ellie, sook wai and uncle khong for bringing me out to swenson to makan. I had a good time with ya'll. *grins* Sorry for contaminating the earthquake with rum and raisin, but i just had to...*grins wider*
When the earthquake came, this was what ellie said :
"Ha? why no dry ice wan? This is not earthquake , this is just...*pause for 5 seconds*...earth!"
yes..dont want earth, but wants earthquake..so much for peace loving..hahah..
some pictures to indulge in..
i dont know why were we laughing, maybe at the photographer...
still figuring out why was i laughing..
finally...
3+1
oh and we took some pictures in the lab with sookie's new camera!!
xiu qi, your's truly, sook wai, hwee jian
This wonderful picture was spoiled by SOMEONE's vain hand. =p ! yes...tim, that's ur vain hand.
Some pictures when we were in 1 utama..We wanted to go before the sales ended. Sookie almost bought shoes from sketchers, but sigh..takda size..kesedihan...
We ate in Wong Kok....
vivien, Melissa, Tim
Statue of "hiau-ness", Sook wai, Ja-Neh
finally..a nice one of me and sookie! (without the statue and the vain hand)
camwhoring in the car...
iPod...iPOd..
I guess tht's all i wanna post it up..have to get back to my work now...
Will blog more next time..
Till then, be good. =)
~me~ at 12:52 AM
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