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Monday, February 27, 2006
nope....computer not fixed yet. Sigh...
In monash now.
Started class today , after 3 1/2 months of holiday.
And 2 weeks before my class start, so many things happened, BAD things.
Its so frustrating i tell u.
First, my computer konk-ed.
Second, my car had some problem on saturday. I had to ask for transport to Monash today.
Third, power supply down last night.
Fourth, i had a terrible and ugly night mare y'day night. Thank God for His strength today, i didnt fall asleep in class. I barely slept yesterday.
Fifth, i still had issues that i am still struggling to reconcile, since last 2 weeks.
WHAT A start!
I was glad tht someone took the time to call and check on me. U know who u r..juz wanna say thanx.
Sigh...told u, february wasnt a month i was really looking fwd for, apart from AYA festival.
I am a lil disappointed and discouraged.
I dislike (and i really want to use the word 'hate', but i guess i shall not use it) people who breaks promises.
And this is not minor promises mind u.
Looking back, i knew i shouldnt have been so naive.
Even my level of trust towards tht person is fading.
But i cannot let it fade off.
I also dont know do i still wanna hold on to it.
or actually , i want to, but it's hard.
I cannot tahan ppl who break promises.
Why make it in the first place?
Why so confident in the first place?
Cant u see what's the consequences? CANT U?
It is MY feelings, and MY trust that u are playing with.
I feel like a compensation, really i do.
I am not some toy, or a barbie doll.
If only YOU knew how i feel, YOU wouldnt do that to me.
Purpose, or by accident, u already did it.
It hurts, deeply. Very very deep.
My pillow is wet because of this.
I still cannot reconcile what was done.
or probably it takes me years to reconcile it. but i will...one day perhaps.
It's so unfair!
Once i was a really cheerful person, and it's half gone now.
I WANT MY JOY BACK!
" The joy of the Lord is my strength"
Lord, I want the joy. Teach me how to love You more.
Plus, Sarah is now in Korea. I miss her so much. T.T
~me~ at 4:42 PM
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
surprise surprise!
Nope, my computer is not fixed yet.
For those who didnt know, my computer konk-ed on thursday, due to the lightning i guess. Sigh...
NOw in my cousin's house to check my mail.
I got one more week left till my class start, and my computer just betrayed me!
SO many things i wanna blog, but i shall do it later.
~me~ at 4:01 PM
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
How do u actually trust someone fully?
I cant do it.
U may say that i am being paranoid, or thinking too much, but well, u r not doing a good job either to earn my trust.
Sigh.. Dont wanna talk about it.
*trying to stay positive and cool here*
ON thursday night , which is 9/2/05, we had a farewell dinner for li shawn, and supposedly for suet yee as well, but sadly, she cant make it.
Fetched li shawn right after CC, and then head to 1 utama.
Met up with the rest(ck, elane, yr, wt and sk) in front of PDI (of all places huh yeong ru).
Deciding where to go for dinner. Li shawn said she wanted something chinese.
Decisions, decisions, decisions....
Finally, we came to a conclusion----> Esquire Kitchen! You want chinese, u got it!
For the first time in OUR history, we have a makan time in a chinese restaurant. You know, calling dishes, makan rice all...
WE even had lou sang. Talk about chinese new year mann..we really know how to get into the mood....groove it~~yeah~~
Here are some pictures during the dinner..
Yee Sang and tou foo fah!
li shawn, and her goodbye speech..
Li shawn, eat more !!!!!!!
Swee Keng....
Wen Teng...
Yeong Ru..
Chai Kun...
Elane..
some chimpanzee.
Yeong Ru, so into her lil bowl of tou foo fah...
Makan..
happy THREE friends.
Happy FOUR friends.
I lurve this picture so much! Thanx to wen teng and her 'skill'.
A must have family photo...
After all those makan-ing time, we went to the ground floor, where all the typical chinese deco were situated. ANother one of YR's brillant but insane idea, she wants to take pics there. So, no choice la, have to join in her insanity. How innocently we were dragged by her.
Teng and CK...
Shawn and i below this sakura tree...sakura right?
This was actually on the stage. Everyone was staring at us from above.
I have no comments..
so is this...
Camwhore! Camwhore!
Elane and I...
my heng dai.
the picture of the nite..if only sy was there..it would fit perfectly!
I guess tht's all for the dinner part...sigh...shawn, we will miss u so so so so so so much!
~me~ at 10:37 PM
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Monday, February 06, 2006
back to school for the young ones.
(as if i am so old)
I am still on holy-day.
Finally i have my rest. hahah...my previous week was pretty pack, and have been wakin up early, non stop.
1/2 Wednesday.
Went to stadium putra Bukit Jalil for AYA festival volunteers' briefing. It lasted for 2 hours or so. Prayer meeting after that in church.
2/2 Thursday
The BIG day!
Got up at 540 am , cuz have to reached the stadium by 730 am. Iris and i had the priviledge to view the sky gettin brighter in the car. hahaha... stopped by 7-11 to buy some sweets and bun for the day, to keep our energy up.. hahaha...
Reached there on time! Had another short briefing and prayer, and CC worship team started our sound check.
Had prayer with Ps Ryan and the team before it starts. God's presence was indeed there, and excitement started to stir in our hearts.
10 am came. Started the worship.
Ps Kenneth came and took over the first session of the 'Emerging men, emerging women' conference.
Ps Sandra took over the second part.
Once again, they did a really great job. I dont know bout the others, but i was really blessed by it.
After that, lunch break.
Followed by tht, it was time for C.A.U.S.E (College And University Student Explosion) . CC team was up again, and after tht, Ps Ryan took over. A powerful 20-minutes msg was put across, about we crossing over.
Had an one hour discussion kinda talk with Delirious? interviewed by Ps Kenneth.
WE had break after tht.
Volunteers had to be in their station by 530. Had a quick dinner complimentary by AYA at 5 before being in our respective stations.
by 630, the hall was packeD!
the door was open at 7 and the night concert was kicked off!
I am not really sure how did it start, cuz i was outside at the entrance.
When i went in to have a look, Paperbag man was on stage, the mascot for THINK online magazine, had a lil game with the audience.
After tht, Altered Frequency took over.
Continued by ActStream, led by Ps Sandra and team.
After tht, PS Kenneth gave a 20 minuts msg.
Delirious? was up next.
Ended about 11.
Ppl started to Q up for Delirious? autographs, and volunteers were 'guarding' them. haha..
I got the opportunity to be a bouncer , when Delirious? needs to come out to sign, and to go back in the stadium. Whee! wat an experience. ahhaha..
Only left the stadium at 12 am after all the packing and stuff.
Though tired, but it was all worth it.
Looking forward for AYA festival 2007 !
Ps Kenneth trying to kill time with the audience while Delirious? is setting up.
the talk with Delirious? .
during the break time. still trying to gather strength to smile for the night!
A time with paperbag man and crew.
ALtered frequency.
Delirious? ...
Siqin, got to know her early this year in CC, flew back to NZ on sunday night.I will definitely miss this intelligent gurl, which is always full of passion about God's work, and also always ready to help, without any complaining.
my wrist band! hahaha..
3/2 Friday
Went to bank with mom to settle some stuff in the morning. Pretty frustrated with the process because of certain reasons. Haih...
After tht, had lunch nearby with my mom.
Came back, and i slept for 1 hour. I was really tired. I only slept at 3am the day before.
Family woke me up , cuz going to KL to visit my ex po-po. She took care of my bro and i when we were back in KL last time. Ever since we shifted to PJ, we always visit her every CNY, with the exception of last year, since we didnt manage to contact her.
So glad that we could meet up with her again.
THt's why no matter how tired i was, i cannot sacrifice this trip.
SHe was like my 2nd grandma, my po-po.
then, had early dinner in our club. SInce we were already in KL, might as well drop by club.
RUshed home to clean up and stuff, and be ready for combined cell cookie feast in church! hahaha..
4/2 Saturday
Woke up early again, to meet up with Vicky and others for breakfast. She came back from australia for holiday and she's going back on monday, which is today. Had a really fun time with them. We had a whole full package of talks from lingerie made out of durian, to politics. My morning was filled with laughter and insights of issues i never thought about it. what a way to start my morning huh? ahhaha..
Then, head to Nick's house to meet up with the rest of the youth. Our itenary was CNY visitation.
And again, it was so much fun.
PLayed this game called memory, which u have to remember the name of others in a certain catagory given.
Esther, i can still remember ur sentence 'I am pamelo'
ahahahahaha..
It ended in PAstor's house.
HAd youth camp-in committee meeting after tht in SS2 McD.
Another day passed just like that.
5/2 Sunday
Church!!
hhaha..
HAd worhsip course seminar by Pastor after tht.
Went and watch 'memoirs of a geisha' with lucas, ann nyee, michelle, and andrew.
It was an okay show for me. Probably my expectation was too high, and plus my tiredness from the long week, my mood wasnt there i guess.
TOday i finally do not have to wake up with my alarm clock ringing, and i can relax a lil bit more.
Currently reading a book by Dale Carnegie.
Till then, take care!
~me~ at 2:33 PM
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