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This is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it...
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Saturday, December 31, 2005
i feel so naughty..
suppose to be doing some touching upon the presentation, i came here to blog.
Waiting for the song from ben to finish streaming anyway..
*yawns*
sO..
Melaka trip has been refreshing.
I mean i really did relaxed, both physically and mentally. I didnt think of any of the issues i was facing, i practically RElAxeD.
It feels great to be relaxed...
Not spiritually tho..I still did pray.
Its my mind..i mean i was really happy throughout the whole trip..no worries, nothing.
Except for getting fat though..ahhaha
Getting back, yeah, i felt great when i was there.
I had a real holiday.
However, when i came back, my mind started to work again. Sigh...Its like an automatic clock in me. like it is saying "ok Jane, u r back, with ur issues"
Still working on it..I can feel its working and succeeding.
Lord please give me the strength..
Tmr is New Year's eve..Infact, *looks at clock*, its already New Year's eve.
Will it be like last year? i dunno..
BUt i know i will over come it, no matter what is it gonna be like.
CUz God will be there.
*winks*
Happy new Year's eve everyone, i hope u all will have an exciting experience!
;)
I've chosen my theme for the coming year, and its gonna be
--> "Out of every trials, comes great testimony. Therefore, press on! Let go & let God"
~me~ at 1:55 AM
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
I got hold of this wonderful song. It really speaks to me now.
Avalon - Renew Me Lyrics
Why am I such a dusty window
For your light to shine through?
Why am I just a tiny star
In a sky already blue?
Why do I offer everything
With my heart closed like a fist?
I want to love You better than this
Why do I live like I'm in chains
When You have set me free?
And why do I have to break Your heart
Before I fall to my knees?
I know it's time to pray for change
Give all I have to give
I want to love You better than this
So renew me
Remake me
Undo me
Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me
Complete me
Pursue me
Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
I need Your power to renew me, Lord, yeah
I need to know You're moving through me, Lord
I need You as my refuge
My first and last resort
Be the river always running
Through my deepest thoughts
Keep me in Your arms
'Cause even when I drift
I want to love You better than this
So renew me
Remake me
Undo me
Unbreak me
Come into the empty spaces
Of my broken places
And consume me
Complete me
Pursue me
Redeem me
Let Your Holy Spirit living through me
Renew me
My life bending to Your will
Seeking You until I'm more and more like You
~me~ at 11:24 PM
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All i want for christmas is just love and peace. That's all.
I dont want presents, gifts, or anything else, but i just want love and peace in my heart.
IS it so hard?
What wrong did i do to deserve such treatment, and on christmas day??
*sHouTS*
~me~ at 11:03 PM
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Friday, December 23, 2005
People change.
Some change for the better, and causes the world to be a better place.
Some change for the worst and causes ppl around them to suffer.
Some change because they think they should change, and it causes some ppl to rejoice, some to mourn.
To conclude it all, people change, and people around them, especially close ones get the effects.
Sometimes u dun understand, they can act really warm to u when they feel like it, and the next minute, they act cold towards u.
And u, not knowing what's going on, gets the effect.
It's so frustrating at times, when u dunno what's going on. Its like u have to follow their mood.
I'm SO fed up.
It hurts u know.If u r reading this, i am telling u right now i am pissed and hurt. U know who u r. But for those who tak berkaitan, dont be sensitive, its not u. Haiyah, i also dunno how to put it la. whatever.
" Lord, my life is in Your hands, Your plans are higher than mine, and i am in no position to complain. Take it. "
I have to always remind myself what's christmas all about. Its so easy to fall into the depression mode when everything seems wrong, and somehow thinks tht this year christmas is not tht great. I am very tempted to juz be in my self pity party, and whine over things. Its so tempting. BUt Christmas a day of celebration, celebration of Jesus' birthday. He dun deserve all this complains, whinings , etc... But somehow the devil is trying to be the party spoiler.
GOd still deserves all glory.
Seriously, i dont feel like singing carols, and dancing to the music.
But its not our preference, its conviction.
To God be the glory, forever.
~me~ at 10:57 PM
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
one word ----> TIRED
WOrking as a temporary staff in a bank as a telephone operator.
I tell u , quite a crappy job, but have to learn to like it till 24th december.
haih...cant complain much.
hmm..i am thinking of doing something, but i am not sure whether i shud.
sigh..decisions, decisions..
so long~~
~me~ at 8:21 PM
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
yup...Isaac is right in saying that i am stupid.
I am stupid enough to say tht the devil manage to rob away my joy.
What a stupid stupid statement.
I juz made God so small.
*hits myself a dozen of times*
How stupid i am.
How could i?
*urgh..*
I feel like a jerk now.
*slaps myself*
~me~ at 1:04 AM
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Thursday, December 15, 2005
I hate it when I..
- cant eat solid food.
- feels dizzy and sleepy
- didnt get enough sleep
- am dehydrated
- am having fever
- feel nostalgic
- need some cheering up
- don't get what i want
- dont get what has been promised to me.
......and many more~~
I feel so bleh right now. Juz ate a piece of bread and so far i have not thrown up.
Didnt had a good sleep. Throughout the whole night, its as if i am struggling to break free. I dunno what weird dream was tht, but i know i was struggling something. I woke up here and there, and felt sweaty all over.
Slept like a pig in the afternoon. Ate two piece of bread with kaya, and drank some salt solution, supposedly to rehydrate my body.
Probably this is some sort of punishment for eating too much in kuantan. hahahha...
I ate satay, cheese cake, ice cream, nuts, pringles, etc.. when i was in kuantan.
Went with my family and tian xiong to watch john's chinese orchestra performance.
We stayed in Swiss garden for two nights. And both nights , we slept at 2 am, thx to all the nice shows on vision 4 and star movie channel.
*Urgh*...i feel so sick right now.
And when i feel sick, i tend to think a lot.
Thought of stuff that really makes me cry.
So frustrating.
What is God trying to teach me here? With all these that i am going thru, what is He trying to teach me?
And of all things, why that? WHY thaT particular issue?
~me~ at 5:21 PM
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Friday, December 09, 2005
"I adore you ,
You are everything to me,
You are all i long for,
You are all i ever need,
And Lord i am hungry for You,
My saviour forever, i adore You~~~~~"
-Guy Sebastian, Paradise Live-
Wow..i really like the song and the lyrics. Fell in love with it after hearing the choir in ACTS church sang it during LIFE service last week.
aH Well...let's back track to dec6..
Tuesday -- 6/12/05
Went to work to stand in for the receptionist, but in the end she came. So i gave the tag back and balik la..hehehe..
After that, went for lunch with Carol and Aaron in Cabana, then later went to makan ice cream in swenson. Earthquake half price ma! hahaha..
Then met up with Sarah in 1 utama. Probably gonna be my last time seeing her. Sigh...she lar..wanna go overboard to study all..ALL also wanna go oversead to study, all for the sake of education. SIGH..
haha..that's was me juz being whiney. Anyway, coming back with meeting up with sarah~~
I had a fun fun fun fun time with her. She's as jolly and bouncy as always. We had fun shopping , siau-ing, crapping around. hahaha...and we ended up watching the show 'the contant gardener'. Not a bad show i must say, pretty interesting and brain-provoking. It similar to the show 'the interpreter'.
After tht, went home to pick up some of her stuff, and send it to SS2. For the first time i got to see her siblings, joshua and daniel.
Tht's bout it for the day..
Wednesday 7/12/05
Mom took leave. Went for dim sum in the morning with dad and mom. Its been quite some time since i have eaten dimsum for breakfast. ehehe..
After tht, dad went to work, and i went with mom to sg wang for shopping! Shop for shoes is more likely the case. Mom wwas pretty funky..she actually like the orange shoes! ALmost bought the shoes, but then i realised its made of velvet material, so it was a setback. Didnt get that in the end. Knowing that i am fussy about things i buy, we went almost every shoe shop. FINALLY, i manage to choose the one that i like. Pretty nice tho.
After tht, went for prayer meeting. Numbers were few, and largely is due to the youths who went to Teen street. SIgh..i have to admit i miss them. Though sometimes they can really heat u up, but they are the ones who make u a better person. (perhaps in the sense of patience? ahhaha..)
Had supper with dad and mom in KTZ tht night. DIdnt have dinner as we had late lunch.
I did enjoy the day, and it so special that i spend it mostly with my parents. I love them a lot, and its such an honour to be able to spend my bday with them.
Wanna thank all of u, u guys made my day..all the gifts were lovely..even though i may not fully express it, but i am really thankful.
However, despite all the fun time , i had an issue to deal with. AN inner issue. ITs pretty frustrating as ur hopes were so high, and it dropped? and off all days..
my bday cake bought by dad...SO NICE wei..i didnt had enough to eat.
choc cream cake!
Thursday 8/12/05
WEnt to 1 utama..its my 1 , 2 , 3 , 4 , 5 th time this month. GOsh...
met sarah and joshua there too.
Went with shawn and Ru.. And this time, we had a really really really siao time.
We argued from lawyers, to kissing the snowman.
Oh by the way...
YR, that lawyer is mine! Eventhough i have not found any pictures on him, but still..he's my lawyer! *booked*..ahahha
ANd li shawn kissed the snowman. I ...i ...i ...cant believe what i saw.and mind u, is a soft toy! Must be the A levels stress..Nooo~~dont take her sanity away , u evil A ! *Bangs!*
Ooo...and have u experience standing on the moving escalator, and then it stops when u r still on it?
We did. And u know when?
We r on it, and li shawn started singing, 'i am sleepy, i am sleepy, brother john, brother john..'
The the escalator slept. reallly it DID!
Yr almost choked cuz she was drinking water. I almost fell like humpty dumpty cuz of the inersia.
LEsson learnt. Neva sing when u r on the escalator. not only it will rain, it will danger ur life.
WE ate lunch in 'Long John silver'. Pretty cheap and good. 5.90 for a chicken wrap, chips and drinks. They even have the bell where u can ring it if u feel satisfied with their service.its a pretty loud ring, or shud i say a loud 'dang'.
Yeong Ru, being herself, went and rang it. and it went..... "DAaAAaaAaaaaAaNnnnNNGggGGgGgGGGGG~~~~~"
and when i turned back, i saw adelene. Malu betul. sigh.
Its been a long time since i was this siao.
let the pics do some talking now.
li shawn and her lectures...
Yr's two apprentice of camera prostituing. hah!
One of Yr's chromosomes.
she neva had enough huh?
yeah..we neva had enough.
the two castaways..aww..
yeah..the one tht got away with the two castaways..
ANd this is cute...hahahaha..
SEE no evil
HEAR no evil
SPEAK no evil.
THat's all for thursday. The youths came back from teen street. Had a terrible stomach ache at night..dunno whether is it gastric or heartburn, but definitely not diarrhoea..
Today (friday) 9/12/05
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!!!!!!
-may you have a blessed day and walk closer to God EVERYDAY! It's been a blessing to have u as a fren! - Lurve YA~~
signing off~~
~me~ at 4:00 PM
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
its 2am.
chatting with isaac now..
listening to the song 'Adore' by Paradise Live over and over again....
tq for all the msged...really appreciate it. It's been a wonderful blessing to be able to know all of u...yes..ALL of u.. each of u contributed in my life..
SSJH, if u r reading this, i wanna thank u for ur encouraging msg. Really lighten up my spirit a bit, and yeah..life goes on and we should let go of the past and look fwd.
will blog more later..wanna sleep now.ciao.
~me~ at 2:00 AM
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Monday, December 05, 2005
I give up, that's it.
So tired of being treated like that.
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Look..i am not talking bout God, my part time job , my ministry or whatsoever...
It's just about SOME ppl who doesnt understand.
Oh well....let bygones be bygones..
let see..
Today was my first day to get the hang of working life.
yeah..
Morning, i got a call from my agent, and they said they have a job for me in P&G as a receptionist. Can u believe it, P&G! One of the largest consumer products company in the world! They handle products such as Pantene, Head&shoudlers, pringles (yum!), Wella, etc.....
and i was the receptionist, answering phone calls and all.
Got to learn how to deal with courier service, such as GDex, DHL, UPS..
Got to learn how to transfer call..hahaha
U know..it would make life of a receptionist so much easier if only the callers knew the ext num to the person they wished to speak to.
Wearing that headphone the whole day gave me a headache too..
nevertheless, trying to learn to like the job because i might be working there tmr again, for standby, juz incase the permanent receptionist is not there.
All i have to do is to smile, greet, and answer phone call..
"hi, P&G here, can i help u? "
sometimes i dunno what i am saying also.
"hi, PLAG here, can i help u?"
hahah...my tongue was twisted..hahaha..
SO if ur parents happened to call tht company and got confused...very very sorry..hhahha
Juz a note to everyone, WHenever u want to call someone in a big company, PLS do get hold of their ext numbers, this makes life simple for receptionist. thank u..
U receptionist out there..thank me!
cheh wah.....hanya work satu hari saje nak sombong pulak..hahahhahah
~ time flies, and so is my money~~
signing off.
~me~ at 8:58 PM
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
its december...whee?
what a forced 'whee'.
Oh well..
for the fact i want to force my 'whee', is because i want to learn to rejoice eventhough i face difficulties.
To some ppl, it may seem such a keci maya problem, well to me, its a bit big. What happened for the past weeks, it affects this month, a lot, and its as if i got stabbed.
I was hurt, shocked, and disappointed.
I can really feel it now, cuz December is here..
I really dunno how to express it out, and a lot of u may not understand what i am trying to say, but yeah..
Nevertheless, i will learn to rejoice despite my troubles.
Because after every adversity, a breakthrough will come.
IT WILL COME, God is able.
Anyway, i started my december quite well though. I had free lunch buffet in Holiday Villa Subang, plus celebrated SI's bday. Lemme keep quiet, and let the pictures do the talking.
Bday gurl!!!!
SI and Keng.
Ru and I.. (camera prostituting again..)
whee~~~
two devils enjoying ice cream and a angel asking for forgiveness on behalf of us..
dinner in Italianiese..(or however u spell it)
our satisfied faces after the dinner.
masterpiece of Yr's camera prostituting..
LAST BUT NOT LEAST>>>
Ja-Ne and her ICE CREAM...er..ignore the fingers, they were just jealous...HAH! *blek*
The dinner would be perfect if only SI allowed us to tell the waitress that it was her bday. CUz they will sing a happy birthday song and a FREE CAKE..(i think..) but oh well..nvm..
k..signing off..
~me~ at 11:14 PM
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